greetings!
been a while, since i last updated my journal, but i guess, now´d be quite the right time to do so once more
summer´s already over and tbh - it´s been the shittiest one in my entire life lol. quite a lot of troublesome stuff happened and i learned quite a bit about how bothersome it could be, if you get too friendly with other people!
every ugly story starts out nice usually, but as soon as stuff begins to cheer up, only to crush you right there on the spot, one should notice, that thing´s aren´t as bright, as they´d seem especially if you´re being broken over and over again until you´re back in your usual "hollow shell"-state haha!
seriously, i´m fed up by shit like this, which is why i´m totally looking forward to university starting again, beginning next week! :S still i´m sure that there´ll still be quite a lot of space to go get drunk and continue spending my sweet love for hate and violence, just like i did over the whole course of summer ))

no offense to anyone, but why would one need to have a heart and shit, if you could also get some vodka? in the end it f*cks you up in the same fashion, but at least it doesn´t leave any sort of bitter taste in your mouth afterwards history always keeps repeating itself, which is why i´ll just keep myself numb and stop caring about it, as i can´t do anything to make stuff work out anyway

so yeah, sweet cheers on hate and violence!
well then, i´m out, keeping up with my tight shedule of utter selfdestruction, while trying to push out some art lol in the end i´m just another lost kid, trying to become a better human and still failing it all the effin way
everything´s wrong anyway
/end rant